Pit

Here I lie in my pit

I have to get up soon to do a ......

Finding work

The pain is always the same

Where to look

What to do

Daily routines help me get by

Mostly I want to cry but I don't 

Nothing

I thought it was something

It turned out to be nothing

I will look again

When I have some spare time

Maybe

Mirror mirror

Who do I see

I see me 

What am I doing

I am looking at me

Waiting

Waiting waiting procrastinating 

The clock is ticking

Life trundles onwards 

Sitting

Sitting in a shop and thinking

Sipping coffee and thinking

Looking out the window and thinking

Thinking about thinking

Always thinking the same

My poor old brain...

Running

Makes me sweaty

Makes me sore

Makes me fitter

I should live longer 

I.....

I look I see

I touch I feel

I swallow I burp

I sniff I smell

I think I talk

I eat I fart

I listen I hear

I work I play

This is me.....

Doubt

Doubt is a word I know

It is an emotion I experience

It is something I want to banish 

Coffee

In the shop it is never fast

The cakes look at me and I look back

Coffee not cheap hurts my pocket but still I drink

Here I sit and think

I think I procrastinate...

Travelling...

Long and hard and tiring

Searching and submitting

(Being) interviewed and rejected

Like an old book in a new library

This journey is finished and a new on begins

On we (I) go....

Heaven and hell

Not separate places when we depart

Very real and with us as we live...

We have choices

Relief...

I need(ed) a job

I saw a job

I applied

I talked

They offered

I am relieved

The Job

Searching was hard 

The mists fell and all was dark

The wind blew and the sun shone

I got s job...

Sitting

I sit and I have drink

Doing this helps me too think

Just farted

I think I stink

What I see

Cars coming and going

Light changing and people waking

Puddles forming and crisp packets drifting

Sand in steps

Ships in the sea

My breath rising and sweat falling

This is what I see...

Coffee

This shop sells caffeine

It disrupts my brain

Coffee makes me pee

Got to go now...

What I see...

White topped waves crashing on white topped waves
Sand on the path
Two feet missing 4 feet paddling
Boulders being moved by water
People walking cars driving
This runner running
This is what I saw today

reflections..

                                                                    Paralysis:


an over analysis can lead to paralysis
they say
this makes me think but then that is not required
when I think I wonder
what do I see
just reflections of me...

onwards....

Spinning:

 

Up at 0800

It is Saturday

Out for long slow run

Gentle wind blowing and long gradient

What goes up must come down

Startled dogs barking and crows cawing

Bright green top and tail

This is my health and safety

Cars come along and with a wave they pass safely

My day has started

The world keeps turning…